Imminent Fate

Raged

2012-02-08T04:54:00.001-08:00

Raged today.

2012-01-30T04:05:00.001-08:00

Oh my god, time passes so quickly, from when I was a pre-schooler, to a nursery kiddo, kindergarten kiddo, primary school kid, sec school pre-teen, and now a JC teen!

Okay

2012-01-28T17:09:00.001-08:00

Tumblr is getting boring. The only thing keeping me there is the interesting posts from other tumblr-user!

2010-10-23T06:11:00.001-07:00

My new Tumblr

2010-08-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

Watashi ga shitte iru. Sono. Anata wa. Watashi no riyō shite. Soshite watashi wa shitte iru. Watashi wa hijō ni yorokonde shiyō sa rerute imasu. Anata niyotte. Baai ni nomi. Shikashi, osoraku 1-nichi watashi wa shūkan ga anata no tame, sudeni shite imasu. Anata wa watashi o ketsujō? Matawa, tan'ni watashi dake o wasurete shimattara?
私が知っている。その。あなたは。私の利用して。そして私は知っている。私は非常に喜んで使用されるています。あなたによって。場合にのみ。しかし、おそらく1日私は習慣があなたのため、すでにしています。あなたは私を欠場？または、単に私だけを忘れてしまったら？

Okay back to proper posting. Hi. (stupid way to start, i know) Common test is over. physics_|_ . its hard. okayokayokayokay i know you read until here alr start scolding me alr, say i can pass jiu hao le.
Chem eng hvnt get back...

2010-07-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

First week of school just sucks.
Second week surely worse.
Just edited my blog la. sian.
i dun like this blogskin.
but just use it anyway.
lazy to edit others.
or go find new one.
im lazy thank you.

2010-06-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

~~Maths Ace-learning~~
~~Maths polynomial wrksheet~~
~~Emaths and Amaths Txtbook~~
~~Geog set 1, 2 ,3~~
~~chem project~~
~~English Project~~
~~shen huo sui bi~~
Geog Project ( In progress )
Chinese bzbd
Chinese book review

BACK

2010-06-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

Ciaossu
I'm Back from the 4 days of course. :)

~~LMSC Day 1~~
~~LMSC Day 2~~
~~PK course~~
~~HFS course~~

But im down with fever, cough and sore throat
hais :(
The fever was alr with me when i was taking the third day of the course. mean two days of the course i have fever, i had to take two tests and sit thru more than 5 hrs of lecture for that two days. like wth only.
okay, nth much le i guess. ciaociao.

My group members for projects, can your like pls cooperate? -.-

2010-06-08T05:46:00.000-07:00

Here i am. Ciaossu.

Day two of LMSC is over. woohoo~~
so:
~~LMSC Day one~~
~~LMSC Day two~~
police K course
HFS course

Thanks to th person who text me and pei me during my course today. :)

Friday. Satuday. SUNDAY. MONDAY :(

2010-06-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

Ciaossu.

Lets talk about what happen this few days again.
basically. eh. okay. lemme not talk in such a formal way.
okay. lets start with friday
-no lifing at home
-did some amaths
-watch hitman reborn
-manga reading

then saturday
-i think is nolifing again la. haha

-Sun-
>went to grandpa and granny house. nothing much there
>did some geog, watch hitman reborn
>eh. then nth liao. no life me.

TODAIII
-sucks
-went for an extreme boring course

so let's see.
~~Leader ship and mentoring skill course Day one~~
" Day two
Police knowledge course
Homefront security course

Hais. sian diao.

ciaociao.

2010-06-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

Hi. Boring way to start my post, i know. thanks.

so uh, lets seeee.

-library with mao and tkl
-spam vending machines
-tkl is pestering me for my homework, for pen and he tried to rape me manymanymany times
-and mao took manymanymany photos
-and post on FB like wtf?
-went comics cnnt. bpught phone chain and necklace. vongola. haha
-mrt homed.

Sat and sun
-cant seem to rmb anything

imma just skip to this monday. easier. dun really need brainwork. slack. -.-
okay. ---> Monday
-made IC
-then jiahao need to photocopy his cert
-so i have to accompany him, go from lib to GO and back to Lib and homed.

-Tues-
NO SCHOOL! forgot what happen la.

-Wed-
-skipped physics and part of ss for npcc.
-then i skipped ss whole chapt 6 sia. best part. gonna have a test soon. according to mr fong
-die liao la
-then shooting in the morning
-not bad la
-4.30 ENG GRP SET OFF!!!!!!!!
-took many photos. played ard on MRT. coz bored.
-ehhhh. waited in lib for sun to set. abit regret. coz when we go the -blahblahblah- ( dun tell you leh ), its like damn dark. cant take pictures. ):
-oh ya. im saving money to buy a katana. very nice sis. $386

=Thursday=
which is today issit. had chem early in the morning
-2.5 hrs chem
-1.5 hrs geog
-4 HOURS OF MURDEROUS MATHS> LIKE WTF???
-brain dead now la. even mr gan oso say he braindead at the end of the 4 hrs. much homework. starting tmr i think. shall be a guai kia.

HItman reborn episode 5

2010-06-03T05:24:00.001-07:00

This video has been removed liao. lol. by me. wan watch jiu go youtube. or any anime sites. byebye.

2010-05-30T20:27:00.003-07:00

Last day of school, i got raped. they didnt succeed tho. fail.

2010-05-18T03:55:00.001-07:00

I dunno why i'm getting this kind of feeling. It just sucks.
Bugs me out. Screwed me up. Driving me crazy.
I'm in agony.
I'm bone dried.
I'm crucified.
I'm being double-crossed.
I'm being excruciatingly executed.
I'm feigning.
I'm not a go-getter anymore
I'm not histrionics
I'm inhibited
I'm jettisoning
I'm kept out
I'm limited
I'm misread
I'm called notoriety
I'm feeling ominous
I'm penitent
I'm in purgatory
I'm quash
I'm recalcitrant
I always succumb
I'm tortuous
I'm useless
I'm vulnerable
I'm weather beaten
I'm somehow xenophobic
I'm not yonder anymore
I'm not zealous

2010-05-18T03:42:00.000-07:00

Hatred drives me mad, drive me senseless. im dying.

-Last Tues-
SS paper. i totally screwed up my whole source-based.
Chem. i find it easy. i didnt study much tho.

-" Wed-
Emaths paper. Manageble. but careless alot.

-" Thurs-
Amaths. i screwed it up

-" Fri-
i dun wanna talk about it. i got tricked at the first question.

Sat sun
-slacked
-played
-slept
-went out
-haircut

-Mon-
English paper ( one word to describe ) disappointment tho i didnt fail it.
Physics. its okay. i dumbly left lots of questions blank. but i still get 77.
Humans. true enough i screwed up my source based. 13/25. not bad alr la.
Geog. screwed tho i passed.
worrying bout my humans project

-Tues-
Emaths-80%
Amaths-65/80
I fare quite well for my chem too.

Dying, Die, Died, Death and finally Dead.

2010-05-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

Im dying
I die
I died
My death
Im dead

2010-05-08T05:49:00.000-07:00

Monday
some boring holiday. stuck at home.

Tuesday
nothing much. just some lesson i hate in the morning but find it okay aft that. i find myself beginning to like phy and humans. i hate chem now. stupid eqn

wednesday
-forgot-

Thursday
Pe like super slack. played bball awhile then do nothing le.

Friday
npcc day. wear uniform whole day . hot . pe. changed to mafti attire and played captains ball with qiongdan, ziilia, fatin, wendy, jiahao, jingyi, sunzhong, judy, rebecca, fuzhen, weiherng, peiyi, qiyu. 7 on 7. from suzhong to the rest is opponent team. lol. quite violent to them. but fun game. my team won suprisingly lah. all those tall tall people in other team. i was like running around. jiahao oways pass to me. i oways pass to ziilia. or qiongdan lol. during maths, i was talking to miss khoo bout chem, she hates it too. she told me i will like it too. she only like it in JC year 2 sia. =.= . then aft school. played soccer. and homed. with jiahao. on 185. funny much. then saw a sign damn funny. the last one. 'no assualt on bus captain'

2010-04-25T04:13:00.000-07:00

you told me you are not enjoying yourself
you told me you are just putting up an act
i believed you
yet when i read your blog
all i can see is you enjoying yourself
all i can read is your having fun

2010-04-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

was suppose to meet someone at the busstop yesterday but in the end didnt meet. then today, she say she meeting her friend, ended up she kena pangseh. lol. okay reading period in the morning. nothing much lah. just stayed in class. nvr go ava. juyst listen to music watch MV with Mao and Linnah. then yea, thats all. revised abit of maths. yeap. and thats that for reading period,then had maths. teacher late. then had a test. yea. quite easy. lol. then recess. went toilet climb up the cubicle wall and stone up there for like 5 mins. yeap. thats all for recess. then ss . dun wanna talk bout it. then we had MT. nothing much. then had PHYSICS. sian dao bao. then lunch and english., teacher nvr come. assigned wqork. and completed it. then stayed back. mum called. sort of rush home. then eat dinner. ownself eat. yea, then buy handphone cover. thats all. now still in procrastination mode.

2010-04-20T07:07:00.000-07:00

first, im going to say i hate this week. second, im going to tell you I HATE TODAY.
things have not been going well for me lately. i feel the pressure building up alr. i feel the air pressure shift when im in class. i dont understnad physics. my maths is average only. and im totally going to flunk my chinese alr. those who want to win me in my studies or what. are you happy to hear this> are you happy to see this? you say 'no' but i know your faking, in ur heart you are thinking 'WOOHOO~~. one lessert threats for the winn.' right? okay i want to stop. mood: currently pissed now.

2010-04-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

Hmm... let me post about friday.

lets see...morning
i met the same person at the opposite busstop again. then walked to school together. not walk. stroll. haha. forgot whether she is playing my hp anot. lol. then went to do some eng when i reach school. the conclusion for my bloody compo. which is going to get a veryvery low mark.

then Amaths first period. had a test. okayokay la. then did some coordinate geometry. then teacher gave homework. can die. gg. alotalot. some suppose to give the day before but he forgot give. so add tgt become alot.

then eng. those who didnt do homework get demerit. lucky i very guai got do all. hahas. then had english. not bad bah. Pharoah and Mau. and the Mau's friend. is Beryl linnah and mao. haha. our area there laugh alot. lol. then recess.

then skip geog. not that i want for rehearsal of the international friendship day. go there so early oso nothing to do. slack nia. waste time. the others get back geog test. i get 21. lol. not show off. haha. then assembly was sian. and stuffy.

then hate mother tongue in JHH class. not bad.i miss her teacher. mr lee one more sian than hers seh.

after school; went eat mac with wanlin, linnah, mao, kailun and ZA. not bad lah. i was super silent. abit out with them. coz i not their clique de mah. then yea. went do maths in 3s5 and hommed.

TODAY IS A NOT SO BAD DAY

2010-04-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

oh ya, forgot tell you. took 502 express yesterday and its like so coool. the bus driver nvr on the machine scanning thingy then he ask me just board. wad a nice driver.

okay. today. took 502 express to school. then walk to opposite busstop to wait for someone. then wait for like 10 or 15 minutes i think i got patience la, hor? haha. then walk to school. i think JYM siao alr. he was walking like a few metres behind us then he fucking keep laughing. dunno wads wrong. he's fugging irrittating. damn him. then walk to school. let qiongdan played my phone on the way. yea. the diamond island game i think. she almost like tripped and fall twice. almost. shes lucky. then reach school copy physics from her, she went to play the bowling game. o.o . very scary. like going to throw my hp. then humans. yea. sleepy then PE. ran ard trying to cheer people. then teo say i nvr pass coz i nvr finish running. i was like WTF i ran last week and i passed. fugger. lol . then physics. he released us like 10 minutes before recess end. milo spill on me. twice. sian. chnged out. mr gan let us take his period for recess. cant finish my food, drank barley. then chem. learnt ionic. then had mt. sian. but today activities quite okay. quite fun. then maths, meed stay back to make up for the half hr he missed. and xtra chem lesson. qiongdan drew something on her leg using something sharp. a heart shape. i drew a thunder shape on mine. qiongdan and niki used my phone take lots of pictures. then got a few times they drag me in. didnt press the shutter so drag me for nothing. then last picture. take with qiongdan. her head is like horizontal. today released at 4.15 i think. damn late. and we didnt get to eat our fugging lunch.

My goal

2010-04-11T01:41:00.000-07:00

Hatred is always there when i closed my eyes. Hatred that swells up like a monster. I have long since closed my eyes. My only goal is the darkness. I spared your life on a whim, nothing more. But this time, my whim is, telling me to finish what i started. If anyone else tries to ridicule the way I live, I'll slaughter everyone they ever cared about. And then maybe they'll understand what it's like to taste...a little of my hatred. I shall, or should i say i must accomplish my goal. No matter what, at all cost. I will kill those who stand in my way. Break my bonds with them. And wash myself clean of them. And the stains they lfet on me...

Patrick Jumpen- Jumpstyle How-to Tutorial :)

2010-04-10T00:30:00.001-07:00

learn it its fun.i already learn it. with my blisters. -.-

2010-04-09T20:08:00.000-07:00

It has been an extremely busy week.

lets just say i forgot everything that happened in this week. i only remember wednesday after i went for shooting but then the training cancelled. bloody bastards.

then thursday, ran 2.4km. blisters. 7 of them. left class early after my horrendous amaths test. can say gg le. oh. and then went for shooting. 2 rounds. 16 bullets. first round 9 m. second rnd 15m. 13 bullets all hit in the box. 2 pajiao thehn 1 bullet spoil. so 65/80. marksman. for the win. lalala.

then friday which is yesterday.ran during pe again.blisters became worse. geog test. spot wrong question and its quite okay lah. then NPCC training. got tortured like hell. sian. and our squad stadard drop like shit thats all. byebye.

Anti-SNSD videos

2010-04-07T04:13:00.001-07:00

2010-04-02T20:23:00.000-07:00

You would think just this once, when it was life or death, I could pull through.

You know what they're like. You can never figure them out. You never know where you could stand with them. The smallest things could put you in their bad side. Always playing little mind games with you. Trying to make you do what they want. Mums are just a big pain basically.

If that's what it means to be wise, I'd be happier living as a fool!

I don't care who I have to fight... If someone rips my arms off, I'll kick him to death... If he rips my legs off, I'll bite him to death... If he rips my head off, I'll stare him to death...and if he gouges my eyes, I'll curse him to death... Even if I'm torn to shreds...I'll protect my best friends.

I...hate people who lie to themselves!

If there's such thing as peace, I will find it. I won't give up!

I'm not gonna run away, I never go back on my word!

My friedns and loved ones saved me from the hell of being alone...they acknowledged my existense...that's why they're so important to me...

Promise of a lifetime!

I kept chasing you, wanting to be just as strong, just as cool... I'm really glad I met you!

Wherever someone thinks of you, that's where home is.

All you do need, is the guts to never give up.

When people get hurt, they learn to hate... when people hurt others, they become hated and racked with guilt. but knowing that pain allows people to be kind. Pain allows people to grow... and how you grow is up to you

Hate only gives birth to even more hate

There probably isn't any meaning in life, but perhaps you can find something interesting to do while you are alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you.

When there is a true desire in the heart and that desire is strong... that is when he finds real strength that even he did not know he had!

There are times when death is hard to accept, but if you don't get over it, there's no future...

Your words will never sway the resolve of those who refuse to let the peace their ancestors strove for be destroyed!

i have long since closed my eyes... My only goal is in the darkness.

If anyone else tries to ridicule the way I live, I'll slaughter everyone they ever cared about. And then maybe they'll understand what it's like to taste...a little of my hatred.

i spared your life on a whim, nothing more. But this time, my whim is telling me, to finish what I started.

I hate a lot of things, and I don't particularly like anything. What I have is not a dream, because I will make it a reality. That dream is to kill a certain someone.

Just shut up for once! What the hell do you know about it?! It's not like you ever had a family in the first place! You were on your own right from the beginning, what makes you think you know anything about it?! Huh?! I'm suffering now because I had those ties, how on earth could you possibly understand, what it feels like to lose all that?!

You and I are flesh and blood. I'm always going to be there for you, even if it's only as an obstacle for you to overcome. Even if you do hate me. That's what big brothers are for.

The people of this clan are all the same. You focus on the trivial, and lose sight of what's most important. Change is impossible, in this fog of ignorance. How can we evolve when regulation is all we know?

Forgive me ... ...It ends with this.

Forgive me ... Again, next time

Foolish little brother, if you wish to kill me, hate me, detest me. And yet survive in an unsightly way. Run, run and cling to life.

Since I don't like waiting or making other people wait ... I'll end this quickly.

Fine art is something wonderful that's left long into the future ... eternal beauty.

Good Friday = Bad Friday

2010-04-02T19:48:00.000-07:00

Good Friday is not good for me.
Woke up at 11 then eat brunch. then procrastinate until 3pm then do homework. did compre and amaths so far.
emaths i totally bkurblur. thats all.
phone bill came. $70 which is impossible.
got one time my messages exceed by 1000 and my bill is $60
now exceed by 400 ONLY and the bill IS $70
scam money la. wtf. i ask my parents see properly, i wan ask them go check but they nvr give me chance to talk just scoldscoldscold non-stop. last time they say sign student plan then in the end change mind, now phonebill bao they say my fault. walan, wtf is this sia. freak of an ass.
and my thigh is bleeding.
and i got so worked up that i ended up gasping for breath. cant breathe properly.
currently gasping. from 6.30am tilll now. im still gasping.

THURSDAY

2010-04-01T09:17:00.001-07:00

Okayokay, its thursday today. so lets see....
early in the morning did the video editing then went down for AVA
then its maths lesson, not that sian. time pass so fast. like the speed of sound. not th speed of light.
then had 2 periods of physics. god-damned sian. the last 20 minutes pass very fast though.
then PE chong one rnd. then went to find the girls to play catching.
Me, TKL, CJH, WH, and ZA suppose to catch like 20+ girls.
you catch one, then go off to catch another one, the partner come and save them bang into qiyun when fuzhem suddenly jump to the other side, but caught her in the end. hardest to catch. i was like running 5 rnd s at high speed before playing catching. so before that alr abit tired le. but then yea, still ran 20+ rnds in the bball indoor stadium court tocatch all the girls lor. qiongdan and weiyi run halfway change direc tion, bloody hard to catch.

RECESS

then i dont wan blog liao la. ba sic ca li, nothing much lor. sian. then aft chiong vid take SS test. put the test in wrong pigeon hole wonder if fong can find it anot leh. :/ okay its late. 12++ byebye. oh ya, today seems like friday.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday

2010-03-31T06:32:00.001-07:00

Monday
-reading period. sat under hot sun.
-then had extreme sian period Phy
-followed by recess
-then chem. the tes. i can finish at super fast speed le. woo~~~
-and 4 periods of xtreme sian periods. humnas and chinese
-then had...wait ah..., i think its geog. yea. forgot what we did. was rushy i think.
-ME. yay. watched the dolphins movie. Sad for the dolphins, digusted by the fishermens
-stayed back then blahblahblah slack

Tuesday
-Humans early in the morning. abit sian. but i still can concentrate
-then PE ran 3 rnds. clocked 6.24 mins
-then phy. recess got eaten.
-had maths test
-then chem no test today. a break.
-MT want to sleep liao lah. then do work until hand pain
-emaths is okay
-stayed back for AVA and video

Wednesday. TODAY!!!
finished all my reflectiopns today
-recess
-then sian periods. MT and PHY. practical for physics cannot finish. jiahao all do wrong. at least he got finish lah
-then emaths. blow bbgum. burst and covered half of my face a few times. jack dunno how blow. teacher call him loser. then taught jack. now he omost can do it lle.
-then SS couldnt go lah. went to npcc dry shoot
-then reached school. videoed. then ate waffle and beibeimian. then now homed. slacking in progress.

byebye

2010-03-26T23:06:00.000-07:00

No pain, no palm; no thorns, no throne; no gall, no glory; no cross, no crown.

Pain of mind is worse than the pain of body.

The only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain.

okayokay. im very stressed now.

Thursday

2010-03-26T22:31:00.000-07:00

i just realized that i forgot to post about thurs.

Had physics early in the morning. had abit of form teacher period. teacher still nvr change places. must wait till tmr. sian.then phy. that teacher (sorry, i dont wan to pollute my blog with that name ) got scolded by mdm oen early in the morning then come our class scold and scold and screamed at us. Andropause sia. every week will have one day liddat de.

then PE. teo xtreme late. let us do wad we wan. so go play lor. fitness corner. ended up having lots of blisters again. then hop up stairs again. heh. aft that iiisss....geog. rush rush de. and we had to teach our partner about flood. i had to teach you-knoe-who. hais. then recess.

aft recess, had eng. continue discussion then had to do reflection again. idiotic. hais.then chem had a test. trial. got 22/40. lol. better than those who didnt pass. then mr wong go thru with us bonding de stuffs, metallic bonding i still bloody god-damned blur. the rest okay lah.
then maths. released 5 mins earlier but then need come back 5 minutes earlier for maths again.

then aft school. slacked. did maths. then went KFC with jack minshi jiaxin linnah and TKL. joke along the way. VP joke and other jokes lah. then i ordered my food at KFC bloody funny. i said,"student fish...zinger meal.' i paused then the person paused and stun there with me damn funny seh, jack oso. then on our way back, i said scarly the person see me buay song then nvr give me spoon. lol. then lead to other random jokes people start laughing again.

at ard five, auntie lock jiaxin and the rest in the class. tried to get them out lor. but like not even one window pane is loose de. then benchia arrived. found one and take it out halfway, auntie came back and unlock. lol.

then homed.

Friday :( or Friday :) ???

2010-03-26T07:40:00.000-07:00

MOrning:
-Missed my bus early in the morning. had to wait for another one. with my heavy uniforms and all those stuffs. then the bus still quite empty lah.
-then someone sit besdie me and almost sat on my bag, i quickly snatch away in time. he's fat too. okay not fat, plump. and i was damn pissed and...i was like errr...so much stuffs how to get out of bus later? ( since he blocks my way out ).
-lucky he alight but ppl sit beside me again. manage to squeeze outta bus today. then walk quickly to school.

First and Second Period:
Chemistry
-had two tests
-chemical bondings
-chemical formula (46/56) all careless

Then 3rd period:
Emaths
-did an amaths test. irony.
-then mao saved me. oh ya. he saved me in chem too.
-i finish the log question in time. but weiherng didnt. muah haha.

then recess:
nothing lor. finish geog. eat in class.

Geog aft recess:
not bad bah. abit rush and sleepy. but still can listen and pay attention

amaths:
-totally tired no mood
-mr gan gave homework, sian ttm.

then lucnh break:
ate with ben JH and Gavin

then had MT:
-sian ttm
-did wrksheet
-then take turns answer. teacher keep asking me answer those i leave blank. idiot ttm.

then aft school. chiong chem wrksheet. dont wanna elaborate. then went npcc.

NPCC:
drills abit slack. we relax alil. sec 3 le mah. lol.
then PT aft that. not bad. pumping spree, pull-ups ( i own them ), then play the dunno wad thing suicide windows. then blahblah. dismissed. debreif. waited for jiaxin and ben. then eat with them and homed. and here i am blogging.

Wednesday :|

2010-03-24T04:58:00.000-07:00

that's it. i totally hate odd week wednesday though we got two free periods. first, ava in the morning. jiahao gave a false alarm. fine, wadever. then Emaths. i kept thinking that its sian and boring. but sort of enjoy. kept turning to talk to xm and wendy and discuss answers too. easy topic. hahas. i like it. mr gan gave homework. hais. sian.

then recess. brought snacks to school. shared ard then ate some of fuzhen's snack, gelasia and weiyi de snacks. :D. they kind enough to share with me. i mean i got share with them too lah. haha.

then HUmans. its okay lah. listened abit today. was talking to minshi and jiahao most of the time. then had MT. totally sian okay. then physics. time oways PASS SO SLOWLY in physics and the god damned mother tongue. >< . :((((, sad and sian ttm okay. hais.

then lunch. ate yuki's rice. then jiaxin went down with th rest. follow suit. ate some stuffs then go back up with gavin they all. then loads of stuffs happen during the lunchbreak. dont wanna elaborate. dont wan type. i lazy type. :( . then stayed back aft school. do maths with those maths club people. me very good lor. pei minshi jiahao fuzhen edwin and weiherng. loll . then homed. thats all.

2010-03-23T04:24:00.000-07:00

its one week since i post if im not wrong? or maybe im wrong.

lets see. start of term two ytd. Damn tired. woke up in the morning, walk to toilet suddenly like the whole world spinning then i lost baance and knock into the door. super loud. then go school. missed my bus, waited like 15 mins for the next one. reached school really late 6.55am. with homeworks undone. then chiong and went down AVA, teacher told me that my duty is odd but actually even, lied to me. then had lessons. BORING. and TIRING.

then Japanese special assembly. went for ava. need to skip geog lesson agin. hais. :/

then stayed in school aft school, slackslackslack. of course got dosome homework. then reached homelate. at cold cold de dinner. then lay on bed and fell asleep with homeworks undone. woke up at 9.30pm. did homework until 12 i think then sleep.

Tuesday.
early in the morning miss my bus chiong 502, help someone pay his bus fares lor. chiong SS essay in the morning. Qiongdan sort of helped. in return, i let her copy physics. then blahblah. lesson boring as usual. i like today's maths for no reason.

oh. chem today. teacher say those who neverdo homework stand up. and i dunno why i stand up. i mean half of one page of my wrksheet is blank coz i dunno how to do mah. i got attempt lah. (refer to previous sentence, i did half of the page) . means i got do then no need stand. but i dumbly went to stand then i suddenly like, ' why am i standing? i got attempt what.' then ask mr wong if i did attempt is it counted as got do. he said,'do half oso counted as nvr do. you boil chicken halfway only meh? *evil laugh*.'. idiot. regret standing aft that. hais. :/ . why am i so dumb.

aft school. they did retest then i just do with them. xtra. then minus one mark. luckily still 80% and above. then lunched with Minshi Jiaxin Shiyu Jack Yonglay Benjamin Kailun Kaeli Linnah and Alvin. no one else i think.

then went bvack do chemical formulae worksheet and blahblah and here i am blogging. okay bye. needa complete homework.

HAPPY TWO MONTHS O!!!

2010-03-18T08:51:00.000-07:00

Sorry Dear. i know its abit late. ><
But HAPPY TWO MONTHS ANYWAYS!!! :D:D:D

2010-03-12T04:33:00.000-08:00

I dont like you
i dont like your attitude
i dont like your crudeness
i dont like how you talk to me
i dont like the wrong time you choose to be high
i dont like the times you force me to do something for you
i dont like your 'take-me-for-granted' attitude
i dont like your cursing
i dont like you alotalot

simply because you change alot. you are a different person now. i dont see the nice side of you anymore.

Okay. now for the real posting.
um. today was having maths first. i only understand half. gonna consult mr gan or maybe miss khoo bah. then eng submit compo. then recess. brought tidbits like last time. shared ard. then was playing the staring thing with wanlin. she lost. alot of times. then geog pon half for ava. idiot sia. then mt chiong compo. graded de. must finish in class. wrote 700 plus words. i borrowed beryl's pin to pin up my fringe. irritating de. keep going into my eyes. then slack and go home.

byebye

2010-03-10T07:38:00.000-08:00

Results came back. , i mean almost all the results came back liao. left chem paper. mr wong is marking so slowly. i saw him after school. and here's our convo.

Me: hi mr wong
Mrwong:hi
Me:you mark finish our paper alr???
Mrwong: mark halfway only ( my face ---> -.- ), now im doing this sai kang. (*laughing with jiahao)
Me:when are we getting back?
Mrwong: until i finish this saikang and finish marking
me:orh. okay.
Mrwong:i think you were one of the highest ( o.o nonono, should be O_O. jiahao was teasing me. -.- )

if you thi im showing off, im not. i just wan to tell you the moral of our convo: we are not going to get back our papers so soon.

okay. its like going to be 12 and im waking up at 5 tmr. sian. byebye.

Shooting Star

2010-03-08T02:44:00.001-08:00

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

I'm in my usual park
I can see the night scenery
On the slide
That's been my special seat for years
Whenever I'm worried about something, I come here
Just like then, I'm on my way to my dreams
But unable to fulfil them
"Maybe this is the end of the line"
There are days when I say weak things like that
But every time, I remember
That starry sky where I looked for a shooting star
The wish I made when I was little
Hasn't changed even now

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

Hiding out in the schoolyard at night with my mates
We climbed the wire netting
The field seemed to have a different face than during the day
We headed for our sea called the pool
We didn't have swimming trunks, so we were all stark naked
Someone jumped in with a strange yell
The splash echoed through the night
"After him!" Everyone else piled in
We floated gently, looking up at the sky
Looked at the stars in front of us, and talked about heaps of dreams
And looked for that shooting star

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

Looking up at the sky, there are countless stars
The same number now that there was years ago
My dreams are endless and crazy
Incredibly bright, like that star

Hey! If you keep hanging your head like that
You won't even be able to see the things you can see
Look up at the sky, keep your head up!!
Hey! "What do you think of the sky you see?"
Someday, like that shining star...
I wanna shine

When I look up at the sky
The stars, see, are sparkling
Each giving off its own light
Like the people on this planet
Yeah, so I, too
Want to shine particularly bright
I close my eyes and make a vow in my heart
And entrust my dreams to that shooting star

My 100th Post

Have a good laugh.

2010-03-06T18:52:00.000-08:00

Have a good laugh. this video cheered me up. :)

Life's getting suckier

2010-03-05T06:52:00.000-08:00

Even though common test is over. By right i should be happy. but im not. i dont like it. i hate my life. its all messed up. from top to bottom. messed up thoroughly. one reason is my bodyaches. like hurt 2-5 weeks le. hais. and other reasons.

This part is SPECIALLY for someone i dislike:
Dear ( or maybe not dear ) ____________,
right here, right now, im gonna tell you how much i hate you. i hate you^infinite. i will never stop hating you. stop all ur stupid actions. i dont like you to interrupt my convo with others. i dont like ur dumb and irritating actions. i dont like ur copying. i dont like any aspects of you. you panseh me and find reason to cover. the reason oways the same. no creativity. even know 3 yr old know you are not speaking the truth.

if you REALLY HATE ME, come right up to MY FACE and say LOUDLY, 'JAVIER I HATE YOU.' and i shall kindly reply you in an even louder voice, ' __________, IHATE YOU MORE THAN YOU HATE ME.' i know you will reply something like, 'im sure i hate you more than you hate me.' BUT i dont give a DAMN.

just fucking get lost. get outta my face.

Your "SINCERELY", Javier.

Exams Over

2010-03-05T00:51:00.000-08:00

Exams are over. like finally. 2 weeks of no freedom sucks. Amaths is manageable today. got two log de ques very hard. Jack and weiherng couldnt finish in time. i left a ques blank, 4 marks gone. -.- . Jiahao only fiish 2 questions. he say de. i dunno real or not. Finally had pe today. ran a rnd. chiong and won. haha. then 16 pull-ups. and play allthose fitness corner de thingy. fun.

got back 3 papers so far. emaths. eng. chinese. own weiherng in all three. :) . finally defeat him in maths. yay! lol. not showing off. but its a great accomplishment for me liao. he lose his record of me not beating him in MATHS exams once. haha.

okay. gtg. bebye. go read manga and play games.

Geog today

2010-03-04T03:09:00.000-08:00

Didnt post for a loooooong loooooooooooong time. hahas.h..eams are make me fucked up recently. stressstressstress. damn. chem was easy. hmmm....them emaths was easy tooo. physics was HARD. idiot sia. then today had geog quite okay i guess. ms chan lie de. she say paper very easy, :[. so 8 papers. 7 down. one left. yay.

Exam. stress.

2010-02-27T18:46:00.000-08:00

long time no post le. 2 weeks of not playing com. broke my record le. went for competition last sat. ytd stuck at home. didnt really study lah. study half of chem only lor. geog hvnt even start. i bet someone is piaing alr lo. he wan to beat me. not letting him beat me. im gonna chiong finish my chem today. :D . but hais. exam so stress de lor. sian. hais. eng-hard, SS-last ques cant finish, at least chinese is easy lah. hope can score well for chinese. SS an B3 i happy liao. eng can pass jiu happy liao.
byebye. im gonna chiong my chem toda ozTR is chem paper le. sian.

New Year

2010-02-14T06:41:00.000-08:00

Let me wish everyone a Happy CNY and Happy Valentines.:D

i dont really like new year. hais. its just so sucky. i know i know. can collect angpows then got mney spend, but i dont like. Valentines? i had a lonely valentines today. my dear went to malaysia. hope she will be back soon. miss her lots.

Thats all. i dont wan post liao. byebye.

im so sorry for wad i did

2010-02-13T09:52:00.000-08:00

My dear friend;_________,

I am sorry for what i did. i know i hurt you. so im hereby apologising to you. Hope you will forgive me. i wan to be your best friend again. :D .

From: Javier :]

2010-02-08T04:40:00.000-08:00

sheesh. had a not so bad and not counted as good day too. haha.
first, the mic stand was spoiled early in the morning. so go control room find a new one. then go back GO hear gerald crap load of rubbish about badminton and wadsoever stuffs. hmm..then geog. teacher call me to ans i tyco one sia, and got it correct. heh. lucky sia. then phy, dont like it. dont wanna ELABORATE.

recess. mr sreeni spoil it. for eveyonein the class. then chem not bad. mt i got 62/90. sian then i flipfipflip then release i should get more marks. teacher count wrong. bloody hell. um then SS. bored ttm. :[ . so sian one.

lunch. eat with jiaxin. then went back class. was late. i tot i was the latest but still got ppl later than me. heh. lucky.

then aft sch NPCC. timing jumped sia. from 11.23 mins jump to 9.22 minnutes. haha. then injured. dont wanna elaborate. sian. byebye.

:(

2010-02-03T05:34:00.000-08:00

hais. i dont like today.

very sucky loads of homework and damn busy sia. hais. tired from cca and now i still have to do homework and projects. super sian. T.T . lucky got my dear pei me. or i really can die liao.

early in the morning went to take video then i cant study SS. damn it. then suddenly need portable speaker. me rush down and up and down and up. then went to find JH. he lost my notes. damn. -.- . then kept speaker and went for maths.

recess didnt eat.

then i think is SS. im gonna fail the test. spot wrong ques. then MT. not bad today. did compre. then had phy, lunch got delayed. chiong lunch with dear. then back to class. for eng. super tired and sian. teacher end early. then had xtra maths lesson from 3 to 3.45. then slack. watch fuhua soccer own the dumb boys skool. then go npcc. basha timing improved but still not good enough. havent hit my target. then meet bused 99 with beryl.

nigel and the others saw us and make a big commotion. they say me yi jiao ta liang chuan. i was like WTf. im not unfaithful to jiaxin lor. then homed. do project. and blogging noww. okay. thats all. byebye. life's sucky. damn sucky.

i hate this week

2010-02-02T06:39:00.001-08:00

This week's gonna be damn stressful.
i cleared physics test ytd.
which means im left with:
maths test [ fri ]
ss test [ tmr ]
chinese test [ fri ]
physics and chem [ either this or next week; depends on teachers' mood ]

and im dumped with tonnes of homework.
and i have CCA the whole week. mon, wed, thurs and fri, i have NPCC. tues, i have AVA. how am i going to study for the test man. hais. :( .

and now im gonna mug for the ss test tmr. wish me luck. i just wan a pass.

todays a sucky day;

2010-02-01T06:46:00.000-08:00

Today's a sucky day. AGAIN.
my face is as black as baoqingtian. eng teacher didnt come today. so slack lor. sunzhong was writing names on the noard but thanks to shiyu and kailun, they erase my name and some others de when sunzhong's attention is diverted. was enjoying the slack period. when mr sreeni suddenly pop out and say, ' prepare for ur physics TEST later!!!' . i nvr prepare lar. the test was quite hard though. manageble lah.

-RECESS-

then humans. almost fall asleep at the last part when the teacher is like chanting? then went for chinese. also boring. both teachers monotone one. then had geog. assigned projects. so hard one. sian. then lucnh.

then ME we took a course. abit sian. totally dont like it. its okay at the game part tho. i shall stop blogging now. byebye.

0.0 why am i here? ;

2010-01-30T21:58:00.000-08:00

o.o why am i here? Nvm, since im here just blog bah.
30th Jan 2010
went to chinese garden to celebrate kengfang de birthday. i go meet jiaxin at her busstop first. i think her mum and sister saw me. then walk to chinese garden. we tot we sure late. in the end the rest later than us. they zai. -.- . thepeople who went are jinnyuan, TKL, me, Jiaxin, ben , KF, edwin, jiayun, boya, elaine, Zhian...and no one else i think. ps if i left out anyone. haha.

go there play games. tio force to kiss jiaxin in front of everyone. edwin and jiayun the 2 lucky ones escape. got away scot-free. -.- . camera flashing when i kiss her. zhian took a video. zzz. then eat and play . jiu go JP for dinner, KFC. went to help mum tabao but dont have the food she wan. then jiu go home le.

For no reason, i dont really like ytd. its fun but i dont like.

omg, i have a test tmr. and im still blogging here. i dont even know why im here in the first place. sian diao lah. socal studies test. memorise. then got a stupid geog and amaths test on friday. phy i forget when le. all i know is i havent even study them lor. okay byebye. i go study le. lalala~~~ .

Kota Tinggi

2010-01-29T03:46:00.000-08:00

hmm... 25th Jan woke up. cary my bigbig camp for camp. went to school. was very bu she de to leave jiaxin lor. 2++ days cannot see her leh. can die le. hais.

First Day:
Reached Kota Tinggi. quite fast. custom didnt jam or wadsoever. what so procced smoothly. were assigned our bunks. we put our belongings, ate lunch and 3S4 move on to play paintball. haha. first match team with weiherng and jiahao, vs nigel peter gerald. weiherng tio headshot. jiahao tio knee. me last man standing in my team. tio pangseh by them -.- i shot nigel like twice but the paintball didnt explode. so damn. lost the match anyway. second match team with gavin and jiahao. vs jiarui weiherng and farhan. this time won the match. i shot down all 3 of them. shot weiherng twice. haha.he sway lor. tio headshot twice by me. then gavin out too. shoulder got shot. i shot jiarui's butt and farhan's knee. haha.

3s4 seperate into two groups at the later part of the day. must prepare performance for campfire. suggested the milo cheer. haha. i know its dumb. haha. dinner. we went out to have dinner. its like super damn nice. like king and queen lor. so much nice nice de food. then went for firefiles cruise got tease by gelasia and others about jiaxin. then went back to campsite, on the way got a few jokes. lazy hare. haha. then reached. debrief. supper and then went to bed. cant sleep. was talking to jiahao. and doing the dumbo reflecions.

2nd day:
woke up at 4. air con too cold le. then went to sleep again. was shivering. sleep until 5.45 i think. then wash up and assemble. we were going to a school. visit their school lor. see wads the diff betweenfuhua and them. its okay though but i think their facilities abit... and their staircase are slant de. very easy fall down.

performed nobody dance for the school form 6 people. haha. throw face lor. lol. then went to have lunch. its abit sucky lah. yesterday's dinner best lor. hah. then went to take photo with a dumb big clock. 3s2 and 3s4 take tgt de. then went backt to campsite for rope elements. the low one is easy except that need to wait very long. yuki stuck in front. screaming non-stop. CANNOT tahan sia. damn, finish the elemnts. mr sreeni said smth which make a few of us laugh.

then go high elements. i tried. alot of people support. jingyi say, ' imagine jiaxin waiting for you.' -.- . finish it. chiong through all the levels. haha. :D . now i overcome my fear of heights le. :D. haha. then dinner , campfire performance preparing. then campfire. our grp sway. first to perform. all messed up. didnt have a full dress rehearsal. thats why lor. sad. t.t go out throw face. sian.

debrief. instructor crap. then went to wash up and then come out do reflections with minshi they all. they all see a dog come jiu scared until like dunno wad. haha. then went to dorm. cant sleep. crap with jh again. then do reflections jiu sleep le.

Day 3:
i dont feel liek posting liao lah. sian. wake up then wash up. fell asleep again. lucky jiahao woke me up. then breakfast then visit veggies farm. muddy. almost fell. caught my balance in time sio. haha. then no water. thirst. kop water from minshi and qiongdan and gavin too. thanks. haha. then went tohave lunch. go shopping at jusco. was emoing. haha. bought chocolate for you-know-who, my dear lor. haha. miss her like hell. haha. then went back to s'pore le.

wait for jiaxin with the rest. haha. did some ' catching up' talk about camp lor. then pei jiaxin wait 98 then bused 99 home.

sucky ;

2010-01-20T06:35:00.000-08:00

Jiaxin's sick. she didnt go school today. no one to talk to. and lessons totally sucky today. emaths early in the morning. wth. then HU which is okay. not like last time so sleepy, maybe its becoz i start to pay attention alr? chinese totally boring. grp discussion. then phy, jack totally piss me off. keep playing with the pendulum. then lunch was taken over by phy so ended up having 10 mins for lunch. eng teacher not here. theres work. but very little ppl do. then class noisy tio scolded. and some crap. and some idiotic nobody dance thhing for camp which i totally hate. seeeeeeeeeee. my day is so sucky. then went npcc. broke my record. 2.25 secs. then built basha. gl zhihao. thats all. someone piss me off again. sian. ben got sabo to be the PC. and i broke a pole today. haha. my post is like so unorganized. so messy one. suan le. i dont wan rearrange. man man figuure out what im talking ( or crapping ).

went to pass jiaxin homework. then she pei me wait bus. ask her go home but she dont want. stubborn girl. wind so big later she sick again. then went JP collect my npcc stuffs and thats it. mind blank now. nothing to post liao. ohohoh. maths and vocab test tmr. sucky. i wan to be sick. or i wan to get knock down by a car and be hospitalised. skip some lesson. so i can finally relax abit. hais. byebye. hope i get knock down. pray hard. weee~~~. i see myself flying due to the impact. then i flew and landed on the grd and BLACKOUT. woke up in hospital and skipping lessons. so nice.

fuck. fuck. fuck. i just recieved a msg. tmr need stay back to learn dance for the camp. i have cca. clash tgt. how sia. damn. sian. i reallY HOPE I GET KNOCKED DOWN BY A CAR> AND HOSPITALISED.

I love JIAXIN (L) . And i love YESTERDAY <3. ---> (16 01 2010) .

2010-01-16T21:30:00.000-08:00

hmm...here i am. posting again. :D .
let's see. wad happen recently...jiaxin changed her handphone. sony aino if im not wrong. the phone like so damn cool one lah. functions so many de. so zai. totally cool phone.

went out with jiaxin ytd. waited for her at the interchange. she was late. haha. so i was like thinking of how to solve a maths question. so she reach. i was still thinking how to solve the dumb maths ques. haha. she tot i angry with her for being late. so walked to library. she do her CME reflection. i do my maths. she help me with my maths. alot of nice things happened. :D .

then walked out of library. nice things happen too.. go jp. bought chao da ji pa and share with her. then went ntuc and buy some things for my mum. jiu go harris bookstore. haha. alot of nice things happen there too. :D. really miss that time lor. hais. wish i can go back but cannot. then before we knew it. its 7.20 pm. time to go home. ( i was suppose to reach home by 6.30pm ) haha. so pei her go her bus berth. then i go mine.

EH. PS AH:> I KOP THIS PART FROM JIAXIN'S BLOG. HEHE^^ . i got edit.
today is a day i will nvr 4gt, just like 31st december 2009...
today is a day even more nicer than 31st december 2009...
we did smt so many times, that we lost count. :P . [ you know wad we do la, hor? ]
31st december 2009, 8th, 9th, 12th, 13th, 14th, 15th, 16th are dates that i will never ever forget. die oso wont forget de.
alot of nice nice things happened during these dates.
between me and jiaxin.
almost everyday have something nice happens.
all are unforgetable.
I LOVE JIAXIN FOREVER!!!! <3

im back to post... ;

2010-01-15T20:36:00.000-08:00

okayokay. i decide to post. nothing to do. sianz.
okay. lets see.

start from 4th jan. the bloody first of school.
one word to describe : sucky . form teacher jiang huahua. tell other class de people then they all laugh. sibei guailan. -.- . and its very tiring. ten i forgot the rest.

5th and 7th Jan:
contigent and campcraft training. jiaxin waited for me. but in the end i cant pei jiaxin go home. sad ttm. sorry jiaxin.

8th Jan:
hmm... had school today. forgot what happen leh. haha. lol. i only remember other people got maths retest. im scot-free. weee~~~ . hehe. haha. then went control room. help adrain do ava duty. solo the whole hall. no standby. only me and no one else in t5he control room. seeeeeeee. me so pro. haha. sec one were learning how to dance. saw benchia, yilun,elvin, 2 jiaxins and amirul on stage. they were teaching the sec one how to dance. me there play the songs nia. so fun. haha. last farewell the song.

then jiahao and weiherng pangseh me and went home first. i told them come control room find me then they didnt and they went home to take belongings for staying over. me and the two of them are staying over for sec one orientation. got ava duty that day.

at night:
mr faizal treat us mac for dinner.

super tiring. and had a fever. ava duty just do. bo pian. oh. i payed with the curtains. haha. and 1R3 and two other class piss me off. they run into backstage and mess up eveyrthing. step on my handphone and other people's handphone lor. they sucks ttm. ava duty over. slack. wash up. then go eat supper with the other 2 pangseher. met mr wong and adrain. they were talking about something. me not interested. i stay one side eat. the food sucks. -.- chatted with jiaxin on the staircase and then mr chia suddenly wan see prefects and jiaxin need to go back study area. something very nice happen lor. mr chia spoiler. hmph. >:[ .

then jiahao and i cant sleep. go run parade square but minshi and jiaxin shoo me and jiahao up. so we ended up walking up and down. control room to canteen back to control and back to canteen. tried to sleep in canteen but cannot. so chat with jiaxin. haha. then jiahao spoiler la. keep on disturbing me. wan me go back control room. so pangsehed jiaxin. hais.

9th Jan:
Parade. CCa display. then got 24 sec ones to join npcc. thats all. then had a bit of npcc training. went back to ava. was late. coz of npcc. hais. then change out of uniform. ava ended. npcc just nice end too. waited for jiaxin. the two idiots oangseh me again. then go eat with jiaxin, met the prefects. thats all. ohohoh, not to forget. me and jiaxin cant forget that day too. soething nice happen too. haha.

10th jan:
practically forgot everything

11th, 12th, 13th, 14th, 15th Jan:
school. school. school. school. school. sucks. maths tio retest. had two test. teacher wan us retest. 39 out of 42 pupils need to stay back for retest. nice? haha.
hmm...then alotalot of nice things happen between you-know-who and me. cant forgot 12 13 14 15. haha.

16th JAN:
im stuck here. posting. haha. lol. im crapping. bye. mabe going out with jaxin later. oh. maths. im stuck. the questions so hard. -.-||| .

Byebye 2009 :( and hi 2010 :)

2010-01-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

31st December.

Went out with jialing, weiherng, shiyu and minshi to do the project work.And meet Jiaxin to countdown. you know the marina barrage thingy la hor??? so sian de. yea. went popular to meet them. i tot i was the latest but in the end the girls were later. haha.

so buy materials. then weiherng suddenly message the queue is reaching him. we rush there. then i was like "WTF" . still got at least 15 ppl in front of him. and only got 3 cashiers mah. means each cashier still got 5 more customers. -.- . <--- the look i gave him. haha.
then went to library to do. discuss some ideas. then tio guailan by librarian. the one who shoo me kailun jiaxin and jiayun from the library the other day. fucktard. she say no scissors allowed. i think she gl too many ppl liao. so scared ppl take scissors kill her. haha. :P . then aft awhile, jiaxin reach le, she meeting me for countdown. haha. i go fetch her, then shiyu stalk me, she noob stalker, need to practise more if she become P.I. one day. haha. and the rumours start again....
aft that 5pm le, library closing, tio shoo out again. mum come lib find me. to giveme money buybooks. jiaxin follow me go down. the rest stand one row at the second level looking at us. -.- .

then went to jp walkwalk with jiaxin jialing and minshi. oh. and shiyu. psps. haha.
they went to eat. then jiaxin pei me go pop buy my books. she help me line up. haha. we line up like for 45 mins. queue so long. damn sian. thenaft that go find the three. call them they dun wan pick up. until like spam the 15th call then they pick up. haha. they at mac. so go find them. jialing going home le. so we 4 bodyguards send her to the "airport" to board the "plane". you dont understand then nvm haha. hmm...then go stand at 2nd floor with the 3 watch my sister work...then went minitoons aft saying hi to my sister.

the four of us spend long time in mintoons. something very nice happen. wan to know? not telling you. bleh. :P. those who know. pls shhh. haha. then go harris book store. see the books jiu wan die liao. words so small!!! gg. haha. then send minshi to the airport to catch her plane. shiyu went off to ta bao food for her bro and go mrt station herself.

then went to eat with jiaxin. then go walkwalk ard the whole jp with her. haha. then go kiddy palace.
and finally mac. ate strawberry sundae. nice~~~

and went home quite late. oh. i send jiaxin to her terminal then go my terminal to catch my plane. ahahaha.

thats all. enjoyed the day. oh then talk on the phone with jiaxin. then she hung up le. jiu chat with her on msn. haha.

im back.

2009-12-30T06:01:00.000-08:00

Long time didnt post. must post something today or later my blog really die liao.

Let me start from Sunday:]
-eh, went to library with jiaxin and do homework. not really do lah. do halfway then sian diao become play sudoku -.- . Then suddenly kailuna and jiayun pop out. they came back from fullerton. haha. and we play taiti, got kicked out by the librarian. then went to jp walk walk. kailun and jiayun keep stalking us. then jiaxin and me split up. jiaxin lose jiayun. but kailun very hard to lose lah. run around whole jp still cant lose him. keep following de. then he pull my bag the strap. cant run away. win liao lo. jiayun found kailun and me aft awhile so become 2 person following me lo. lose them and met jiaxin at pop. but they still found us. then they go off aft awhile. slack outside lib but rain so went back to lib, the 2nd floor, children de. go there slack then go back jp. mum ask me buy bread. -.- . and xiao bai cai.

Monday:[
went back for npcc training. train whole day. from 7.45 to 1.15. and from 2.30 to 5.30. then went jp with ben, cant find the hp cover. nothing else. oh yea. i got serious body ache. damn. and my hips the old injury came back. damn pain. ohohoh, and i broke my record for the diagonal lashing. improve by 15 secs. :)

Tuesday
went back for npcc again. traintrain.. then we build the basha(tent). built it within 15mins 37 secs. not bad for first try le. haha. then got one senior wan make the whole tent topple . i go smack his ass. and got pumped. haha. ben laugh at him. got pumped too. then left at 10.45. go ava. prefcts wan rehearsal. the rehearsal is like so slack de. not like real de. then someone piss me off. show that person attitude. ate mac with jiaxin. she couldnt finish her fries. i finish it. :P . and she help me with my sprite. (best part.)----> many sway stuffs happen when we eating. spilling drinks, shirt tio sauce, shoes tio sprite. ( didnt happen to me and jiaxin :]) pity jiahao. his shirt got chilli and his shoes got sprite. coughed out some *****. someone dirted my cards on trhe bus too. damn.

Today(wed)
went back to school for ava. teacher treat us eat lunch. $5. haha. ate with jiaxin. weiherng and jiahao again. waited for the prefects until quite ate though. the wo were whining for food. haha. :P . then went back to sch to take bag. i kope jiaxin's bag. bleh. dont give her back. then stroll to busstop with them. 98 ran off. haha. then 99 came. oh yea, and i was smacking someone's hand. the person got smack back too. haha. find myself suddenly so childish. -.- .

i say already

2009-12-21T02:08:00.000-08:00

say already, you dont listen
listen already, you dont understand
dont understand, you dont ask
ask already, you dont want do
do already, do the wrong stuffs
do the wrong stuffs, you dont admit
admit already, you dont correct yourself
correct already, you not happy
not happy, you dont say

Marina Barrage;

2009-12-20T04:58:00.000-08:00

back to my blog. went to marina barrage today. with weiherng jialing and minshi. haha. meet at jurong east mrt station. i jump onto a train, then jialing they all not enough time and the train door slam in front of them but dunno who clever,put hand under sensor and the door open for them again. haha.

The MRT is like so damn squeezy. and we took the red line. so long==. i know you are thinking that we are dumb. who cares. haha. and then weiherng and i were like standign at the doorway. then jialing make space for me so ended up standing in the corner with her in front of me. feel very uncomfortable la. cant move around. because standing like so damn close. like 2-5 cm away. later accidentally touch her then she say i molester jiu die liao. haha. then at raffles place everyone on the train alight so left 4 of us. we went to sit. i sat away from them. anti-social. bleh. :p

Oh ya, minshi and jialing gave me my bdae present on the MRT.
hmm...then reach marina bay MRT station. walk to the busstop to take shuttle bus. then took the shuttle bus to marina barrage. when we reach there someone keeps pouting that he is hungry. not me. you know who la hor?? then went to rooftop for awile then jiu go gallery to search for info. then ended up playing there.oh yea, jialing and minshi were scared of the floor. the transparent one where you can see the model. jialing and minshi chuatio there. they were shocked by the automatic door at the end of the gallery. haha. and we play with the camera there. someone is still pouting that he is hungry. * me got damn irritated*

tyhen we went to the rooftop again. to slack bah. walk around. play around then went to water playground. haha. me got wet first then the rest see le oso playplay then wet only jialing nvr get wet. so i drag her in and got her wet. haha. hold on to her so she wont run away and she finally got wet. haha. then went to take some photo together at the playground. minshi hp dropped on the floor. and my reaction was like. go see this link--->>> http://mediastudiesisshit.files.wordpress.com/2009/05/shocked-1.jpg

then i stand in the sun and wind to sort of dry myself up. but ery slow==. i got bring clothesbut nvr go change. the hungry person went to change. we saw smth damn funny. jialing and minshi laugh like they nvr laugh for 100 yrs liao. non-stop one. then went to the two gallery to colect info. the hungry person went ot eat. while jialing minshi and me MRT-ed back to jp. went back to eat. ate mos burger. haha. cost a bomb. and when i call the-now-should-be-full person, he say he's at outram park. we laugh like hell coz he took mrt the wrong direction. then i quickly msg him again. he say he is at home.== . but i dont believe lah. coz when i call him, its like so noisy. he must be somewhere in bugis le bah. haha.

went minitoons. bought a handphone pouch. minshi bought something for the prefects gift exchange. then went to buy wrapping paper. i nvr ask her faster then she suddenly got pekchek and say ' wait! ' and i was like O_O, i got say anything meh??? then the wrapping paper she wan to buy was sold out. last piece tio taken by other ppl le. haha.

then bus-ed home. minshi went to find her sister. i got home. thehn quarrel with sister and mum. mum siding with sis. dad siding with mum. so i lost. hais. damn.

currently still fevering. hais. byebye.

No title ;

2009-12-12T01:28:00.000-08:00

I cant believe it. My eyes hurts like fuck and im still here staring at the computer screen blogging.Tis few days nothing much la. Only stay at home do homework, play com, read the storybooks i borrowed from the library. And play bball. That's all. if you are wondering why my eyes hurt so much, then i tell you now lo. Ytd read a storybook from 12 mdnight to 4 a.m. after staring at the computer from dunno wad time to 11.45pm. nice horh??? Mumsay i can go blind soon. at ard 1.30pm chuatio. Sister came back and slam the door. i was reading the storybook , see, me so guai (cai guai). hahaha. im lame -.- . Hmm...homework sucks. Only manage to complete all my maths, one eng reflection, and science. The rest CMI liao la. i think last day of holidays then chiong. OH yea, eh, nvm. eyes rly hurts now. dont wan blog liao. maybe talk about it in my nxt post which is like dunno how many days later. And im missing alot of people. hope to meet them. and do homework together????? yea right.

Off to plurk. Byebye.

Current mood: pissed :@

2009-12-10T01:01:00.000-08:00

im gonna blog. or my blog willd ie sooner or later. haha.

Monday (7/12/09)
went out. went to jp to do homework wif jiahao. met ragnild on the bus. hhaha.
then jiahao went home and i waited for my family. going to celebrate granny's bdae. haha. in the end i waited for dunno how long then they reach. -.- . then nth mush. aft other family members went home. my mum dad and me went to shop. nth mush though. NTUC xtra. sian.

Tuesday ( 8/12/09 )
had Npcc on tuesday. we pitched a tentage. when we finish le. all of us hid in the tent. then sir ask a few questions bout tentage and he came up wif a story. it goeslike this---Benjamin and Javier fight. Then Benjamin pierce Javier. Javier's blood splattered on the tentage. == . and ben and i really went to sort of fight in the tent. haha.then we dismantled the tent and build it again. this time sir took timings though. im in charge on pegging. damn. handfs got a lot of blisters. then went to play bball aftwards. legs got more blisters. == .

oh. and i went to jp to collect the money from ntuc xtra. they charge my mum xtra money. so stupid the cashier. someone from cheena. cant blame. maybe she dunno wads the differemce between 5 and 2.

Wednesday ( 9/12/09 )
Went to library wif jiaxin ytd. I only did one piece of homework at the library eh. and that's the book review. haha. im a slacker. asked peipei whether she wan to go but she's not free. so too bad. hais. borrowed some nice storybooks. haha. then bus-ed home. bought shiling and ate on bus. the bus driver didnt care. haha.

then here comes the best part. my mum bring me to jp again. at nite. damn sian. then shop. was suppose to look for new hp tobuy but singtel in the end close le. damn sad. mum going to check tmr. haha. yay.

Today
Npcc today. not bad. today quite slacky though. haha. played ard wif ben. i mean FOOL ard. haha. we like super childish. play wif bamboo stick. then sir test us on our round lashings. haha. im the first to finish and the best eh. WOO~~~ . haha. then aft that. play wif ben then sir say we like very free then give us smthj to do. haha. still quite slacky though. then went library again(wif ben this time). borrowed a few storybooks then bus-ed home again.

mum say change hp on 28/12. yay. haha

celebration ;

2009-12-04T06:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went out with Jiaxin, peipei and terry to celebrate my birthday. haha. i know abit too late la. but better late than nvr bah. went to watch 2012. terry watched before le, then he revealed some movie spoilers which is abit-.- la. haha. then aft that went to poular, jiaxin went to buy books then rest of us look at books. thenw ent to library. terry didnt tag along. haha. then jiaxin left aft awhile. left me and peipei doing maths. then went home at ard 6.30pm. peipei almost fell down. floor slippery. hah. kept reminding her to be careful. alight at the same stop as peipei then went to get my present from ben. he and kf give de. haha. enjoyed myself ytd. Thanks to peipei, jiaxin and terry.

i want to thank everybody for their gifts. haha.

okay. byebye.

i wanna kill you ;

2009-12-01T19:56:00.000-08:00

i wanna kill you.

2009-11-30T00:47:00.000-08:00

To the same person, i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. dont you ever try and understand me once?

Went for AVA today. Did some sort of spring cleaning. We clear the whole control room and its like ewww....full of dust.Collected for 10 years. Damn. Had to use clean them totally gross, hand super black aft that then, some wires very sticky. then i go coil them. then senior say ' JIAYOU!!! I LOVE YOU!!! YOU WENT TO SARCRIFICE URSELF!!! WOO~~~~' hand damn sticky after that. wash very long then not that sticky. then blahblahblah and so on. was suppose to go for interview for job but my mum dont allow T_T. the pay quite good seh. damn. hais.

i hate you ;

2009-11-29T04:16:00.000-08:00

Dear [ Not going to say who],

Thats the last straw. You never do understand me once. i hate you. you are not my friend. i hate you. you are so goddamn hated by me. i think im not a friend of you. so you are not going to be my friend either. i tried you befriend you but you dont wan so, im not going to give you any free 'services' any more. im not going to trust you. im not going to be nice like before. im not going to talk to you. anymore. YOU force ME to do this. i wanna tell you, everyone is better than you. they are a better friend than you.

Your 'friend',
Javier

life just SUCKS | :[ ;

2009-11-28T06:39:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i really dont know wad you are thinking. its jus hard to try and figure out what you are thinking. hais.

sister went to do facial today. my mum ask me to accompany her. hais. waited from 2 to 7 then her facial finish. pro la hor? i cant believe i got this kind of patience. then went to jp wif my mum. she nag and nag and nag non-stop until i couldnt take it and scold her. and she went to pout to my dad. -.- . life just sucks. it couldnt be worse off for anybody. and i dont know why i submit my particulars for the job. now i really regret coz my dec will be very busy. hais. damn. okay, i will stop here coz, i hate blogging bout my life. i rather stick to blogging bout the person i hate. say how much i hate them and wad i wan to do to them like burn them or wadso ever. maybe my nxt few post will be abouthow much i hate a certain someone.

my birthday is tomorrow. but somehow im not looking forward to it. hais. and anyone knows how to delete blogs?

2009-11-26T05:58:00.000-08:00

im feeling very lousy now. alot of unhappy stuffs happen to me lately. and when i say alot, it really means alot. all these things have left me feeling nothing but an overwhelming sense of helplessness now. its like the end of the world. im slowly falliing into depression. hais. i cant do anything except for feeling sad. which explains my helplessness. i tried to solve them, but to no avail. i tried to escape, but i cnt. i tried to suicide, but i dont dare too. i tried to cheer up, but i only became more depressed. im feeling very lousy now. alot of unhappy stuffs happen to me lately. and when i say alot, it really means alot. all these things have left me feeling nothing but an overwhelming sense of helplessness now. its like the end of the world. im slowly falliing into depression. hais. i cant do anything except for feeling sad. which explains my helplessness. i tried to solve them, but to no avail. i tried to escape, but i cnt. i tried to suicide, but i dont dare too. i tried to cheer up, but i only became more depressed. im feeling very lousy now. alot of unhappy stuffs happen to me lately. and when i say alot, it really means alot. all these things have left me feeling nothing but an overwhelming sense of helplessness now. its like the end of the world. im slowly falliing into depression. hais. i cant do anything except for feeling sad. which explains my helplessness. i tried to solve them, but to no avail. i tried to escape, but i cnt. i tried to suicide, but i dont dare too. i tried to cheer up, but i only became more depressed.

I HATE YOU ;

2009-11-25T05:46:00.000-08:00

i think you never understand me in the first place. not even once. i dont know wad the hell you are thinking. maybe you think im an idiot? No, im not. i figure it out. im just an useless puppet for you. am i right? i seriously wish i had one of those pair of eyes. so i can jus finish you off with it. For Once And For All!!! i dont mind harming my eyesight by using those eyes. as long as i have those pair of eyes. to destry you. its worth it. worth it.

2009-11-24T06:00:00.000-08:00

Damn tired today. hais. went jp to find peipei. she was shopping for my present. but couldnt find one. she say too hard liao. haha. then aft dat take bus wif peipei, alight at wrong stop. so i have to walk a long way to ben's house. go there slack. watch a few movie. fast and furious and the ice age 3. quite nice. then went home.

hmmm....damn sian. npcc tmr. but bopian. promotion test on friday. must train train and TRAIN!!! why do i sound so damn enthu? okay. must be something wrong wif me le. ahaha. was suppose to play dota wif ben today. but unfortunately, cant again.

i wan be like that guy. gouge out my own eyes. ahahah. of course i doont dare la hor? but he seriuosly looks damn cool.

To a certain Someone ;

2009-11-23T20:45:00.000-08:00

I don't care who i have to fight for you. If he rip my arms off, i will kick him to death...if he rip off my legs, i will bite him to death....if he rip off my head, i will stare him to death....if he gouge out my eyes, i will curse him to death in my grave....for you...

hais ;

2009-11-22T10:27:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to meet that person ytd but in the end didnt make it. hais. again. but nvm. that person is busy though. understand. haha. crapping away again.
ytd went out wif my family, my mum say go lot 1 buy stuffs. but then in the end i didnt buy a thing. damn. i was standing outside the shop waiting for my sister to choose wad she wan to buy. mum and dad ask me go walk ard. but lot 1 so damn sian. so -.-. nth there de. then went to temple to pray. was suppose to go jp. but in theend didnt go. too tired liaoo. so going later. haha. im gonna buy a new wallet eh. woo~~~~ . my old one spoil liao.
today was suppos e yto go out and exercise wif ben but in the end his mum dont allow him go out.

Finally ;

2009-11-21T20:37:00.000-08:00

finally, i decide to come and update. dont really feel like updating, but if i dont, my blog is as good as dead. -.- .
these few days are reallyy scuky and boring. nth to do, always call poeple to go jp deh. then go there eat and buy stuffs until i really pock now. -.- . was supposed to meet someone aft meeting jiahao ytd, but unfortunately, cannot. hais. hope today can la hor?
went to exercise wif ben jus now. nth must. jus run, slack and then sun tanned. haha
ben finally turned blacker. woo~~~
sorry, this post is all crap. if you read until this part, i really muyst thank you liao

i dont understand ;

2009-11-16T13:00:00.000-08:00

Why must fate pull us apart? Why must we go to the same class as those we hate?
It really sux. Yea, i know many people are dying to go to 3s3. but seriously, i hate 3s3.

And i dont fucking understand why those who dont deserve to go can get in? and those who work so hard for it cant get in? isnt fate being abit unfair? isnt god being unfair?

i oni lose to that 4 people in maths and i cant get in? maths oni wad, one sub okay. its not like i lose to them in all subs right? god damn them okay? and the best part is my level position is dunno how many numbers ahead of them???!!! isnt it retarded?
and my maths, im oni one mark lower than the fucking requirements. and i cant get in? its damn fucktarded.

To a certain someone ;

2009-11-16T10:16:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry.
i love you.

I love you;

2009-11-15T20:07:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU.

Open house yesterday ;

2009-11-15T19:40:00.000-08:00

School had open house ytd. damn tired.
went to school early in the morning to the booth and put all the food there. Then my group realised no ice, so i had to go out and BUY a 5KG packet of ice and carried it back. Had bbt on the way. Not nice de. the auntie anyhow prepare deh. honey red tea can become honey green tea. pro hor?

then go back school, heard that CO wan to practise. so i had to chiong upstairs and prepare all the mics for CO.
Stupid ava members all pangseh me, left me alone. so had to set up everything.
weiherng- stomach ache, go toilet SHYT
Jiahao- "im still on bus!"
2i4 Gerald- mia
so i had to carry all the mic stands, wires and mics evrything down by myself at one go. hope i din grow shorter. the stuff very heavy.

Then ltr help the CO to change a mic. The other 3 pangseh-er are back to help. went down to change. then realise all the mics connected to port 8 not working. then weiherng show off. keep giving some dumbs orders like, "keep testing." , "change wire.", "change mic.". in the end oso cannot. bloody show off. in the end he oso bo pian go call teacher help. then realise port disconnected long ago. damn him. make me carry the wiires and mic and stands up and down.

Then chinese dancers. happy la hor? ur say ownslef pluck out the wire, in the end oso nvr go pluck out. then make me go pluck. AA sia. dumb-.- .
then break. teacher tret me curry puffs and hotdogs. woo~~~. so nice.

Slot 2
Q n A
i wen to AA again. the Q n A wan AVA ppl go take the mic to whoever who wans tooa sk questions. in the end, 5 ppl ask, oni i use the mic, make me run here run there for nth. dumb-.- .

then aft ava, went to npcc and help.
then released at 4.05pm. went to play ice wif ben. then bused home wif him. and one of my senior.

i hate you;

2009-11-14T19:06:00.000-08:00

You thought you understand me. You thought you know me well. But the fact is you dont. In fact you nvr do, from the start. you will never be what i expect you to be.

and y frineds. im not talking about you. just my enemy again. okay? dont think too much. thanks.

The NOT Escorted One siging off...

I'm sick, Hais :[ ;

2009-11-14T04:42:00.001-08:00

2nd post of the day. my back hurts. my butt hurts. everywhere hurts. -.- . im fevering now. nice eh? + a flu. house ran out of med. fever for 3 days le. temo. went up and down. rollercoaster. hais.

2009-11-14T04:24:00.000-08:00

To someone. i hate you. you treat me like dirt. like nobody. why do i even wan to get involved wif you? you bloody asshole. im sick of you le. get lost. get out of my live. im gonna taboo you. once and for all. taboo you. tabbo you out of my life. you didnt treat me as friend in the first place. im jus a toy to you. you treat me like shit, im gonna give you hell. you wait. you wait and see. dont get so bloody freak out when i do nasty stuff to oyu. you bloody freako. freako.
and i was just thinking....
i thought, 'you are a great friend who knows me well.', you know?
That it'd be okay wif you, you know?
And you wont treat me like a toy or even dirt you know?
and all you did ever was disappoint me, you know?
i'm fucking pissed, fucking happy, fucking sad, fucking depressed, fucking idiotic that i dont now wad to feel now.

to my friends who read this post, please dont get the wrong idea. i m not talking about you. thanks.

2009-11-12T01:16:00.001-08:00

Tired-.- .
woke up early in the morning. send my bro to my uncle house. back and have to do all the housework. sian. body aches now. mum sick. hais. have to do housework until she okay. my sister escaped coz she got exam.so she good lo. then chiong to jp meet others for charity bazaar, ankle damn pain. sprain it ytd. spend time shopping lo. then go terry hse pass him the hotdogs. he supposed to cook it.

super tired. dont wanna blog much
body aches.

chocolate spill onto my shirt. dumb pancake. prima deli de. i nxt time dont wan eat le
scrubbing it jus now=.=

2009-11-10T05:11:00.000-08:00

Does a heartache need a reason? is it becoz you are hurt by ur closest friend? hais.
anyway, i very happy leh know y?
i got most of symtoms of depression leh. just a few more symtoms then i will get depression le o. so happy o. yes!!! depression rox.

Symtoms:
Sadness or hopelessness- i have
Irritability, anger, or hostility - i have
Tearfulness or frequent crying- sometimes
Withdrawal from friends and family- i have
Loss of interest in activities- i have
Changes in eating and sleeping habits- yea, i become nocturnal creature liao.-.-
Restlessness and agitation - i have
Feelings of worthlessness and guilt - i have leh
Lack of enthusiasm and motivation - i have this one too
Fatigue or lack of energy - yea, i have
Difficulty concentrating - i ahve
Thoughts of death or suicide- sometimes

eh , wait. means im in depression liao leh. i all have. woo~~~ . nice one, javier. *Claps*. finally got depression.

2009-11-10T04:06:00.000-08:00

hais. super depressed now. no mood to do anything. jus blooooooooooooooooooog. okay. i forgot to reply to someone de sms. and that someone angry wif me. ying liao lo. win liao lo. hais. who ask me la. so forgetful and busy. then in the end read her msg liao then nvr reply.
hais.

2009-11-08T04:08:00.000-08:00

Hating someone requires more courage than loving someone.

Hatred is just like a block of wall. It wil block out all the happiness of your life. And make you more unhappy.

And dats me. i'm full of HATRED

2009-11-07T21:58:00.000-08:00

i hate the first week of holidays.
coz we surely have some enrichment.
on the bright side, we can get to see our friends.
first day of the first week. went back for ccm twice.
all also so slack de. nth to talk about.
then wed went to cycle (npcc) , cycle 20+ km from changi ti east coast. nth much too. except that i at a student meal + 2 extra packet of fries on that day
super hungry.
ytd went to celebrat grandpa birthday. nth much though. dats al bye.

anyway thanks to those who tried to cheer me up. bye.

2009-11-03T00:18:00.000-08:00

Im extremely angry with someone today. that particular one person. Ben told me to bear with it. but no way am i gonna bear with it anymore. I'm super tired of bearing with it le ,and my life too. i m tired of my life. im tired of waiting alr. Everytime something like this happen i feel super tired. i hope i can juz disappear and go to a place where no one can find me. for eg, alaska? Yea good idea if i have enough money. im sad, tired and i have no motivation to carry on with my life. T.T . Anyway, to a particular someone, my handphone no money today so i didnt reply.

if you wan to know how i look like now, maybe this pic will help you:

End of post.

Maybe i will be mia from the cyber space. even if i appear, oso for a while oni.

Signing off, escorted

2009-11-02T00:20:00.000-08:00

im totally dulan now by some people. they jus.....okay just put it as they are a bit kiampa?

anyway,i just posted the first part. those who watched the 2nd part and dont understand can go watch the first part la. those who understand the 2nd part and just waych the first part for fun. go enjoy the vids.

escorted signing off.

2009-10-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

On the ground I lay,
Motionless in pain
I can see my life flashing before my eyes
Dead I fall asleep
Is this all a dream
Wake me up,
I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive
I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
I feel alive,
when you're beside meI will not die,
I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

On this bed I lay
Losing everything
I can see my life passing me by
Was it all too much
Or just not enough
Wake me up,
I'm living a nightmare

I will not die (I will not die)
I will survive

I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
I feel alive,
when you're beside me
I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying

I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me
I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying
I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
I feel alive, when you're beside me

I will not die,
I'll wait here for you
In my time of dying (more)

2009-10-31T05:04:00.000-07:00

I know its a lie along...;

And i was just thinking "you can reply.", you know?
That it'd be okay with you, you know?
And then you look like i'm too much trouble,you know?

i know, i know you hate me. its just a lie all along. from the start till now, you never treat me as your friend, not even once. You can deny it, but i know taht i'm juz a toy to you. once you get a new toy, you just dump me away.

i dont want to say this but you made me do this,you make me say this you FORCE me to say this three words

'i hate you'

2009-10-28T04:16:00.000-07:00

You can love what you get, but you may not get what you love.
you make life easy for me, i make life easy for you.
you give me hell, i give you shit.
its as easy and as simple as that, nothing much.
anyway im not talking about anyone, dont fell insulted or whatsoever

2009-10-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

Back From Camp;

i'm back from camp. it totally sucks. the activities are so boring. its almost like a slack camp.
my group members are okay except for a few gays and one person who is like jianyou. Stole our food and finish it at one go. dont wanna talk about it anymore.

PISSED OFF;

im damn pissed off now.i hate myself for being me. i hate you. i hate everything, i hate everything about me. i hate everything about you. i hate you forever. y must you make me so pissed off everytime? ya,maybe its my fault okay? if you think its my fault then sorry alright? accept it and forgive me or you can choose to ignore me...

Super sad

2009-10-26T03:07:00.000-07:00

i'm super sad today.
due to some reasons
recently kip on quarrelling wif someone,can be counted as quarrel ba
going for camp tmr le byebye.
anyway the lyrics for the first song is my third post. go see if you are interested

-cant think of a title-

2009-10-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

Marking day wen out wif peipei jialing and jiahao
jiahao didnt come in the end
he pang-sehed me
damn him
we went to buy present for jiaxin at Daiso,cant seem to find anything to buy for her, but in the end still found it.
aft dat we walked the whole IMM in search of a dumb elmo,i think jialing found one but its too ex. in the end she bought a mr.happy.
then went to library,slack there for a while,then go popular to buy some fold star de paper.
then went home
MRT-ed wif peipei. jialing took a 98 home.
my legs are like jelly. wobbly wobbly de

Never too late

2009-10-24T05:00:00.000-07:00

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again

This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Even if I sayIt'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
It's not too late
It's never too late

Deepa Raya Celebration today

2009-09-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

today i was hoping for 11am to come quickly so i can pon lesson and go ava for the stupid concert. one sec 1 junior totally screwed it up. he pulled the wire and trhe mic topple and everyone was ' OOOOHHH!!!!!" then b4 dat got the stupid rehearsal,got one CO accidentally topple the mic stand,cant catch it in time and she almost hit my head wif some stupid instruments. ltr the dikir barat damn stupid,they say they will get the mic themselves but in the end they didnt and all the sec 2 ava got scolded. damn itthen aft sch,wait for kpp to finish her mindmap,meanwhile i was doing some history stuff and then we went to mac when kpp finish her work. both of us ordered mac spicy. i went to the table and put my food there then igo back and stand near the door there,kpp was wondering wad im doing,then she realised that im waiting for her coz i noe she cant open the door herself.haha.then weiherng damn XTRA,we wasnt planning to call him go but some one call TERRY ASKED HIM and he went to mac with us.he copied wad i do and every single word i said which is damn F****** irritating okay?
then bused home with peipei jiahao and weiherng,i was standing and sleeping. haha. then when i rch home,chatted wif peipei until now. want to know wad we are toking about?
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go die la,the convo is private,not telling you ,:P haha
baibye

2009-09-16T05:05:00.000-07:00

i hate wed

2009-09-16T04:01:00.000-07:00

f*** man,i hate today,the worst day of my life. first, we had two period of maths,luckily is quite slack,then pe,tio elbowed by garald he play cheat.junxuan tio by jianyou.haha. when jianyou elbow me he lost balance and rolled on the floor.then is Art,help MR DOCTOR TAN take water then no brush borrow frm ppl,then aft recess,science sian,chinese okay la,test nia,then still got eng which we use for history then i play with scissors and ms revathi said its enough to get you arrested. zzz rite? haish nth to post about liao,applying cold compress to my face injuries,painpainpain!!!

school reopen

2009-09-14T06:08:00.000-07:00

i sort of like today, ^^ our lessons today sibei slack, like nth to do,art juz draw lines,eng journal,music slack ard,maths did nth much,homeecon open book test nia chey,mt tacher nvr come i dont bother to do the wrk she assigned so juz copied my friends one. then peipei went to sit at my place. -.- chuan yi was there and yiming too,i got so damn fuck up with them,they thought my table is ncc drum and start hitting it,ci***.

Taboo

2009-08-26T06:14:00.000-07:00

HEY you bakas,i know you are taboo-ing me out of ur life, trust me im doing the same bloody thing too,im gonna taboo you once and for all...and there's actually anyother person i want to taboo out of my life but i juz cant bloody ****ing do it.

2009-08-21T06:45:00.001-07:00

Time to wake up...............

2009-08-21T06:19:00.000-07:00

wad the hell is ur problem??? you totally flunked your asshole eng la
maths oso flunked
chinese 77 oni
dang it la
eh, wake up alr a not???
i dont care la
everyday i muz study at least 2 hrs,every 2 min im not study i do 5 pumping as punishment.so if i slack the whole 2 hrs means 300 pumpings